Sunday, June 21, 2015

Confused Love

You're confused. You can't decide between not wanting her and needing her in your life. You know you love her, but you ended things. Why? What is it you fear? Did you fear she would not love you back? Did you fear that one day she would get up and leave? I guess she should have been the one who was afraid. Lying to her for days and weeks that you love her, just comes to show how much you care about her feelings and how easy it is to lie to yourself than it is to her. She is a woman of rock, hard to break, but possible for you to smash.  Whats even more crazy, is how you can't see how much you truly love her, but everyone around you can. And what sucks the most, is you knowing she can't move on, even if she tried. She's still loyal to you, and its been months. Call her crazy but that only makes you stupid. Shes broken. So broken she needs you. Not as a lover, but as a friend. The friendship you both had before things got serious.

She saw you in a way you have never seen yourself. Someone like her never intended to be rescued, she knows how to do it alone, she doesn't need to depend on anyone, but she wanted you, she needs you. She knew what truly matter. It wasn't your money nor the dates you took her on, it was your heart, your jokes that made her laugh. She needs that from you.

You can't force yourself to love someone. But you also, can't force yourself to stop loving someone. Why couldn't you love her the way she loved you. Why couldn't you realize that she would always be there for you no matter what? Why couldn't you understand she wasn't ready for commitment just like you? There was no rush in anything. She understands that being alone is easier than being around people who don't understand you. But why couldn't you understand she understood you. She understood why you made the choices you made. Maybe this is why she has not given up on you.

She is different. She is a fighter. She fights for what she believes in. She ignores the fact that you hurt her, because she knows there is positive in you. Don't be so negative. You can't escape the things you love.  She is only this way, because you made her fall hard for you. And you can keep pushing her down, but she will only get back up and try again.  She hasn't gave up on you and she never will. She knows the most beautiful things in life are imperfect and the most difficult. Don't give up on her like you know she won't give up on you. 

Saturday, June 13, 2015

the big eX

They are called "ex" for a reason. It's like a bottle of poison, the "x" makes it clear you should not drink it, for you will get intoxicated and die. And the "ex" means you shouldn't go back, for you will get hurt and die, just kidding, but you get the point.

What I'm trying to say is, don't linger on forever and wait for your ex to come back. You either put yourself on the train to depression or you fly your own plane. Don't ever wait on things that probably won't happen. Keep on living and don't let a heart break get the best of you. Of course you're going to hurt, who wouldn't? Cry if you need to, break a few plates, egg his/her house if you want, but when you're done, don't let him/her be the reason you cry at night a year from the break up. You need to move on and find happiness somewhere else.

"How do you forget someone you have been with for over 3 years?"
You can't really forget someone who made an impact in your life. You can't just erase them forever, but what you can do is let go and slowly you'll find other things or someone new who can make a bigger impact in your life and slowly blur the past that you had with your ex.

"What if we still talk and still are deeply in love with each other, we just can't be together at the moment?"
Depending on why you aren't together at the moment. You shouldn't stick to someone who only has you there for a quick booty call or can't see you with someone else but they can flirt with others. Don't be stupid, you are better than that. If it's due to distance, than you got a point, if you two really want to make things work, you will play it safe. You two are together but not official, it's just better that way due to the distance.

"I broke up with him and I regret it, I miss him and he doesn't want me anymore, but I am in love."
Sometimes you have to live with the consequences of your actions and decision's. Not saying you should give up, you keep trying to win their heart back. But if they moved on, then you should too, and if it's meant to be it will be.

There has to be a line drawn. Is your ex worth it or should you just move on? Most breakups deal with problems. And depending on the reason why you broke up determines if your breakup was worth it or you made the wrong decision and you should go back and win their heart before it is too late. An example, you two broke up because one was caught cheating. Will you ever be able to trust your partner? Will you be happy with someone who cheated on you? Probably not, this is an example that proves you made the right choice by breaking up. Another example of a breakup: you two broke up because she stole your food. I mean that is ridiculous. You don't just break up with someone because they stole a few french fries. Get yourself together and stop acting like a child.

We need to be strong and understand that things don't happen if you don't make an effort on trying to change it. If you are currently hurting from a breakup, be strong, you will get through it. There is nothing more heart warming than knowing you are one person down from meeting the right person.